sometimes i really think God hates me. As sacriligious or ungrateful as that sounds that was the thought i kept running through my head last night over and over again. Yesterday was a really nice day too, which makes me sad it ended  how it did. I went to the movies with my r and saw untraceable-it wasnt that scary just gory and diane lane was great in it. Then we went to starbucks and just sat at a table in the middle of city place square i guess lol. It was nice, we were talking and getting to know each other more. I told him things about my parents and how they use to fight and i never usually tell anybody that. I dont know why i did that. Then he took me to work, a mile from work i remember that i didnt bring my SHOES, so i had to buy shoes at Marshalls-I felt bad because he had to be somewhere but he still took me. SOOO NICE! Work was work and all I wanted to do was go to sleep so i could do yoga today, but then i got the mail, and it said that i was not accepted into South University's Nursing program and that I should apply again in the fall. WOW, Right when that happen i put on that fray song and started to cry my eyes out. I called jacob and started to cry and then when i heard everyone was asleep upstairs I got some wine and tried to drink the whole bottle. I was thinking about killing myself, but I thought about leaving my family and how mad they would be. I dont understand these trials in my life and i dont understand why God hates me. Am i really not suppose to be a nurse? And if not, what am i suppose to do now?