my family is driving me nuts, plus im on my period or will be and im getting anxsy. I look at astrid and i just want to take diet pills. I wish i was skinny like her. Bleh. my family stresses me out man my mom and dad just suck sometimes. I just want to have money so i can have my own house and just live my life. It's so annoying sometimes.

going to miami in i few minutes, peter isn't coming :( of course not. No one is ever reliable. I never want to plan anything anymore. I just want to go with each and every day, because i just get set up for failure. i really wanted him to come.

ugh im so annoyed, i took a test for urinary tomorrow and now i have to retake it on Monday. I wanted to be done by Monday. So know we'll see bleh! Better news, I got Bs on my psychology classes!!! yay!!! I thought I was gonna get a C and a B, but the professor curved it, AWESOME!

my dad is such a jerk sometimes. My relatives in delray have told me that i have lost weight, and i have. I think I'm back at 133, but my goal is 130lbs. He was like you still are big, just your face is small. You still eat. He doesn't realize how those little things he says really hurt my feelings. It's like I tell myself Im fat all the time, and then him or my  mom saying it again. makes me feel really bad about myself even more. I wish I looked liked my sister. I'm crying now. I miss poopie, he always makes me feel better. I have my period which makes me more crazy you know. I was searching diet pills. i dont know i just wish people were more considerate.