I feel like something is wrong with me. I dont know I just feel like down. like i'm missing something and nothing can fill it. I just felt like that today. I dont want to take my exam tomorrow. I just feel like in a familar rut. I just want something beautiful and new to happen but i feel like it wont because my schedule is very structured. I want peter to surprise me and be romantic or something. I want to find a new friend. I need someone or something. It might be that i havent done yoga in a long time. But i can't afford it right now. Yea i think it is yoga. Unbelieveable. the impact it has on me. It's like you can go to the gym everyday, but the mental benefits of yoga are immeasurable. i miss it. I wish i was as good as tracy in my class. but ill get there in my own way. I need to remeber that. I WILL GET TO WHERE I WANT TO GO BUT ONLY IN MY OWN WAY.