ive been in those bummed moods lately. i just feel like a LOSER basically, like a BIG FAT LOSER! to be more clear. I just go through each day just in facade, pretending that i didn't go through this, but i did, i had my geriatric clinicals, and went through all this, and IT FUCKING SUCKS! because i think about my classmates, i think about how they are working now and just moving on with on their lives, and im stuck at home, going to pbcc, dating a 19 year old for almost a year now, living in a house where no one cares about how i feel and all they want me to do is finish school so i can pay for astrid's tennis. Im just so damn tired of crying. IVE BEEN CRYING SINCE I WAS BORN, feeling bad all the time, wanting to leave and just starting new, its like i will never be happy, ill never be happy. I'll never do what i want to do, because i have all these responsibilites to take care of or people underestimeate so i won't do what i want. Sometimes all i need is some daily encouragement. I feel like a wall and nobody notices me. Nobody notices me and im dying inside, wishing i was happier. God, will you show you why you brought me here, because sometimes i feel so sad.