Also, I'm in the LPN program from Monday-Thursday and work at JFK from Friday and Saturday. So far its been ok, I got and A in my last class and I got an A on this past test from this new class. It just sucks cuz i wish i did this last year or last semester instead of right now. Or that I took these two classes I have now this past summer, because then I could work more. But everything happens for a reason i guess. This latter phrase is something I have been holding on to for years now, and Im really hoping to see the results of it soon. I think as Americans we try so hard to control every aspect of our life, i think in other cultures they are not spoiled like we are. They do exactly what they are suppose to do everyday and that's it. Instead I as other Americans take life for granted and complain about the minor details that I'm unhappy with. I need to be less selfish and consider that despite the hardships that have come to me, I'm more fortunate than alot of people in the world. 

So im at the point in my relationship with Peter where I'm trying to see where things are going. But when I think about us not being together it makes me sad. Why would he say that he couldn't do the triple date with us because he's not 21. Before he would be mad at me because i told him that i wish he was older and now he just makes me feel bad because he acts like i dont keep in consideration his feelings. I really love him, I really do, but you know how i am, i hate saying goodbye and i just leave without doing it. I've always been like that, but what happens now. Ugh i wish i didn't have these stupid thoughts, WHY DO I THINK SO MUCH? WHY AM I NOT CONTENT?