kinda super bored today. Days off are weird, because i crave them when i am at work, but then i wish i was at work, because it would be something to do. I think I might get coffee and go window shopping until my dinner with glenn. I had Yoga and Pilates this morning, and I'm kinda feeling ing. Super tired afterwards and only watched some of the Nadal and Tsonga (Tsongalicious as I like to sing to myself). I cleaned the car, half assed though, because i didn't vacuum lol, more like rearranged and threw bottles away. I'm so lazy ! lol I bought this yoga book, ASHTANGA YOGA  PRACTICE MANUAL by david swenson, supposedly the founder or co-founder of this kind of yoga. I like reading this because it makes logic out of my yoga practice. Yoga is different from sports I've played before. In tennis, the main purpose of the game is to beat the other opponent, but with yoga its more about strenghtening and balancing yourself. There is no competiton in yoga, which is refreshing to me because i feel like my whole life has always been a race with others. Yoga Day is this satruday, hopefully I'll get myself there with or without someone, it should be good, oooo that means i need to purchase a mat lol. I need a yoga buddy. "R'' as I like to secretly assign him on my phone is good, i just feel so attracted to him only physically not mentally which is brining me down and making me think to much. Also another thing has made me think alot, the movie Crazy/Beautiful, very good film, despite its exxaggerated scenes and what not, but the core of it is very good. Being in love basically. That state is somehting i have pondered about all day today and yesterday. I've never been in love, maybe extreme infaturation but never in love, which at the age of 21 is sad don't you think. But then the other side of me thinks i'm still young, love will be there but other things like goals and such won't and being with my family won't last long either. I think things that are self centered or desires of our inner soul will be reached one day-our given day. i guess. Ugh i want to break it off with "r" but he says cute things, like how he misses me and the way he hugs me ugh, these feelings. But I know I KNOW within myself i need someone else, someone older and has drive for things that doesn't concern me, that's when i know he will fit. My hands are cramping lol, i'm done for now.