i'm sad again, i listened to the fray " how to save a life," and i'm crying again. because i miss nsg school and i miss orlando, and i miss being by myself and i miss the thought of graduating this semester and really starting my life, instead of being stuck in this bipolar household where i feel like i'm locked up and i have NO IDEA who i am anymore. I don't have goals, i dont have any self esteem, i just feeeeeeeelllll realllly bad all the time, and i go out at night and i drink just to escape who've ive become and what ive done. my dad yelled at me this morning again, because my room wasn't cleaned, MY FUCKING ROOOM WASN'T CLEANED, LIKE I'M 16 YEARS OLD. sometimes i wish they would disown me, so i could just leave. and all my friends have left, they went back to orlando, gainesville, and soon up north, and i'll be alone again. i'm in the closet again, crying, and listening to this fray song over and over again. The song reminds me of when i first started nsg school and how excited i was, because it felt like my life was going well for the first time in m life, and now i'm sitting here just thinking about it, alone with all these sad feeelings, i just want to escape.