Wow

I haven't wrote on here in a long time well lets just summarize: It is july and the last time I wrote in this was in may

End of May-June

-The Bachlorette Party was so much fun: great drama hahahah and great stories with nothing about me except i was sitting on the bar drinking NICE and thought I was going to die that night due to alcohol intoxication.

-The wedding was beautiful and I was so glad that suz let me invite peter- We had a blast.

Late June

-This was a bad month. Papa Wewe died. Wow writing it down like that is surreal. I still can't believe he is gone. It was a wednesday June 17th. I had just got back from clinical and was going to the gym. My dad was txting me that he was in ICU, and then i called harvey and he was like he is not doing well ling. I knew right there what was going to happen. I still can't believe he is gone- like I think about it and its still unreal. I still cry about it, because the biggest thing is that I didn't say goodbye. I never told him he was my favorite uncle. That I hoped he was proud of me. That he could of seen me graduate from nursing school and see me succeed. He and I never really had long conversations or i would tell him about my life and he would tell me about his. But that is what I loved about him. you didn't have to, it was like he knew and he loved you no matter what. I really miss him. I feel so bad for my Tita Fe and for harvey, kuya eyet and ate lindy. They were the group and it seems so empty even though only one person isn't there. I would of loved to just say I loved him and that he was my favorite uncle.

July

Classes were crappy this month. I was lazy and unmotivated, but I had the help of angels in heaven and on earth to get me through it. Unfortunately, we lost Sharon. I still can't believe it. I wasn't prepared for it. I was prepared for us walking together in graduation. Its amazing how good people like her can be treated like that. How life can be so cruel. She was my best buddy. She was there for me when Papa Wewe died. She called me everyday and made sure I was ok. She and lidija helped me with my exam. They were so good to me and I just can't understand why this happened. My hearts hurt.

***i miss yoga, i have been so unbalanced emotionally and physically. i want to go back and get centered, but i dont know. hopefully the money will come.