Wow, I haven't posted a message in a long time. Well here are a few updates: One- I got a job at JFK medical Center as an ICU Unit Secreatry-its pretty awesome, the hours are redic, but its what i'll be doing for the rest of my life, so its nice being surrounded by it, it actually makes me more motivated to become a nurse. I love being in the ICU, because I am surrounded by both GOOD and BAD nurses. You can really tell who wants to be there and who doesn't. It just shows how diverse a nurse is, like it school i think they wanted us to be the same person, when in reality. It is us who is gonna be there. I love it so far. the pay is good, the people are nice so far, and im just really happy, im doing something my parents are proud of me for. I think its been a long time since I had that feeling of appreciation. Next, Peter and I broke up for a day. It was weird- I don't know what I was doing. I guess I felt that he was the wrong person for me and that I hadn't seem him in a long time. But I love him so much and when I realized that I would never see him again, it made me so sad. He's been a part of my life this transition year and I couldn't see him not in it anymore. I call him or see him everyday and he's been there for me when its beeen hard and he's so supportive of all my endeavors. Finally, I got into the LPN program at PBCC. I am happy, because I deserve this. I was the one who made the mistake of failing out of school, I was the one who put myself in taht postition and if it sets me back a couple of years, I am very willing to accept it. Because in the future, I am will be responsible for people's lives and I need to rememebr that. Another thing that happen was I tried birth control pills, and it was horrible. I bleed from may to two days ago before in July. It was stinky and nasty and embarrarsing. Horrible experience.